How Do You Know if You Are Falling in Love?
Love grabs your heart in a clenched fist. It’s hard to breathe. When you are falling in love, you are afraid of falling out of love. If you are in love, you are petrified that the object of your love doesn’t love you.
Falling in love makes you feel instantly vulnerable and ecstatic. Food tastes better. You eat more without getting fat. You drink champagne and your head doesn’t so much spin as waft you into a trance.
When you fall in love, everything is impregnated with new meaning. It is as if you suddenly have borderline personality disorder. Falling in love is a fantasy, a riddle, a puff of air you can’t pin down, you can’t name, you can’t see. Love is invisible, indefinable, as inscrutable as that moment between sleeping and waking.
Falling in love is like skydiving the first time from a plane afraid that your parachute isn’t going to open. You tug the rip cord and send a prayer to Eros. Falling in love is like falling into a black hole in space, a vacuum where time stretches and bends.
When you are falling in love, you suffer a weird neuralgia. Your teeth ache. Your fingers tingle. Your armpits prickle. You need to go to the bathroom all of the time. In the mirror’s reflection you see a different version of yourself. You can’t sleep. You laugh for no reason. You walk into doors.
Love is like the universe, not more mysterious than we understand, but more mysterious than we can understand.
Is Katie Falling in Love?
In my new novel Katie in Love, Katie Boyd feels soon after she meets Tom Bridge that her entire nervous system has gone out of sync. She struggles against this feeling. She didn’t expect to fall in love, she doesn’t want to fall in love, and believes that falling in love will steal her freedom to continue her life as a London party girl – the way she sees herself.
Having rashly chucked her floppy-haired boyfriend, she meets Tom at a party on New Year’s Eve and love between the sheets that night is everything a girl every wished for.
During the next 21 days, before Tom returns to his post as a doctor overseas, the forward action is threaded through with Katie’s reflections on her past until the present and future intersect at that point when life-changing decisions have to be made.
Katie in Love now has more than 100 5***** Reviews on Amazon.
5***** “Thurlow gives Katie the power to be simultaneously in control and vulnerable—a complex duality that often transcends the page and is stimulating for all readers, male, female, etc. Meanwhile, her power of observation and insights into human nature are especially alluring for the more discerning reader –
“They see me across the rainbow of fiesta lights as a blank canvas requiring their signature in a gooey splash of scribbled jism; a column of alabaster that needs to be reshaped, their sculpting hands eager to rid me of my clothes and go to work with their carving tools. I could be perfect, just perfect, if I only gave them the chance.”